Is God punishing me? Advice.?

I know that you may be thinking god is punishing you but he isn't. Testing you on how much faith you have in him. You heard the saying god will never give you more than you can handle? It's so true & my faith was tested recently. I actually thought I would just die of grief along with other bad things happening one after another. I felt like I can't take anything else bad happening to me cuz I'd break. See my biggest obstacle was dealing with losing any contact with my daughter. I still have my youngest with me & she was the only reason I even tried at all. I went through that grief for 2 1/2 yrs & prayed every night for help. I asked him for anything, I had to know she was ok & that she knew I love her and didn't want this. I cried so much I thought I'd never stop crying. I'd lost hope & was wondering if I'd done anything to deserve any of that. Then finally around Christmas I found my daughter's grandma. I had a small ray of hope but still had to see if she'd even talk to me still. Well she did & I feel so happy b/c now I won't be left in the dark. I stopped drinking, smoking so much (trying 2 quit), & feeling lost/hopeless. Sorry my story is so long, even shortened haha. So don't worry I don't think he's picking on you. I think he reserves these situations for the special people. The ones who truely are amazing & forget/lose our special qualities along the road. So he does things like this to remind us of how special we are. I sure hope things get better for you soon though.